niggas gotta eat..

i've definitely neglected my blog .. not like i have many fans so i guess its not so bad lol.

i've been sick for almost 2 weeks straight. soooo horrible. i have slight hearing loss in my right ear and everything. will i ever get better? jeez.

so, i've come to the conclusion that being an adult sucks. you get all this freedom but nobody told me that i wouldn't have the money to enjoy my freedom. so then we get a job, which restricts our freedom.. because we have to work the next day, or during the day.. oooohhh what a vicious cycle.

why can't i get paid for doing nothing. i'm so jealous of celebrities and heiresses and rich people in general. ok maybe not jealous but i'm definitely slightly envious of their lavish lifestyles. i don't need all the money in the world, i just need enough to pay my bills, pay off my education and do the things i like to do without having to stress. how annoying is it to wake up in the morning and stress about how ur gonna get money for a metrocard or lunch? .. or as soon as you get a check more then half of it goes straight to ur phone bill, nevermind the other 3 credit cards you have .. that you only used because you didn't have enough on ur debit card anyway...

how annoying is it that you rockin the same lil ballerina slippers for months HARDCORE cuz those are the only shoes you have cuz the money from ur paycheck goes on more important things, like FOOD to survive.

damn son... times are rough. i wish i were back in high school, when metrocards were free and credit cards were non-existent. when you would hit ur mom up for a twenty n make that shit last all week. when a lil afterschool job was just so you can buy clothes, pizza and candy, and not necessary to support yourself.

i need to be successful because i hate the way my life is going right now. money has never been so important to me as it is right now. IMAGINE if i had my own place?! every day i count my blessings that at least i still have my mom to provide a roof over my head so thats one less thing i have to worry about. i wish i could help her more, but i can barely pay my own cell phone bill. =(