That driving force..

everyone knows i'm good at something
but no one could ever really put their finger on it.
pause.

Becca Anomaly of 2008: did not exist. She was just the Beatnik back then. fresh out of college. i dunno doing something like web design, or like.. media. something? yeah.

Becca Anomaly of 2009: late in the year the first appearance of Her shows after "anomaly" gets tattooed on Her wrist. you know, spontaneously one weekend with friends.

Becca Anomaly of 2010: busy, busy little bee. events, music.. lots of music!

Becca Anomaly of 2011: [PRESENT DAY] "Damn, how did I get here?"

I know I'm doing something right. because I have noticed progression in my life. progression also in my career and relationships. but what is it exactly?

Maybe the things we "need" from life in order to succeed aren't necessarily tangible. It isn't the things you can buy or produce that are going to answer that question. just acknowledging your current emotion and knowing when it needs to be changed will benefit you.

relax. i'm not going to say something extremely corny like we just need to love and be loved. although that would be a pleasant emotion.

i'm speaking of emotions such as pure ambition, pure drive, pure determination, as long as its pure it will be your driving force. people afraid to feel/experience emotions will never get ahead in life. you need to be able to feel a situation and behave according to your instincts. it isn't always about logic. we've all seen some illogical shit in our lives. give up on logic. although it helps! actually i changed my mind. don't give it up, just don't RELY on it.

i guess what i'm trying to say is, i'm stuck. not sure what emotion i'm feeling right now. a bunch, i'm sure. i need to pick ONE and stick with it.